little bit sad

Listening to "Because of U --Kelly Clarkson" when waiting for the
shuttle bus in a terrible weather....

How I wish we could go back to those days in high school when our
loved friends were still around and do not need to face a life so hard
and complicated.

It's always hard to live a life I want, or I should say, it's never
likely to love what I've already got.
I feel confused
Am I missing u, or the amazing past? Or, maybe both?