貌似最近开车开得很嚣张

呼，忙着玩的日子过得真快

我倒真的是在家里呆不住的人哈，没事干就是要把车开出去烧油……

想到昨天就觉得很神经，我个新牌仔就那么开着辆不熟的车上了高速去大梅沙，回来遇上堵车不说还跟人抢道，找打啊……然后今天又不小心跑去华强北偏要往华强路，振中路上挤……我觉得我最近没出事真的是巨大奇迹！

思路有点扯远了，不过仔细想想我真的很败家诶~唉，我也不是没想过要限制一下每月的开支，可是就像我现在没办法减肥一样【实在想不明白高中的时候是怎么做到的】……太放纵自己

恩，想到昨天在香蜜湖吃烧烤，围一桌坐下来的人说出去都是名校，却一点也不像该有的社会栋梁的样子

某种意义上说，我【或者我们，，不知道，，，】享受着一种不同于身边学生的叛逆疯狂，自以为了不起，自以为别人都是不懂活着的白痴

其实谁（们）更傻呢

怎样就更superior....呵呵，忍不住的，虚荣，嚣张

什么时候我才能不在意别人的眼光，踏踏实实的过日子？

最近某人病了，仔细体会到，我还是有心的

'Look at me, I care about you.'

although i was drunk that day, i could still remember lots of things. i know you care. and i know i care about you, about my family, about my many friends,, for sure.

Love is such a burden to me then, and now. and i really wanna give up sometimes. just get drunk and sleep on the street,, needn't think about anything.

that's kind of irresponsible.

but why would i have to? why do i have to make my life right?

for me? no, i m not that kind of person that could live and decide for myself, ever since i was a child...so this would lead to another mess...anyways, i'm trying, which sometimes makes me acting like a bitch....

i was talking to my little cousin,,'just try to do something for your mum, grandpa, your not alone.'

my mum was mad at me tonight, for being home late... i have no idea,,, coz i thought coming home for dinner would be a little 'abnormal' to me. why would she still care about being late?

and then i feel so sorry, i should have come home earlier, or, i shouldn't even go out...

ok,,, i got it. the point is, i was being tooooo sensitive.

it's totally nothing...

i have to go,,, sleep